Yesterday was an off day for me. I had to wake up and do yard work I was voluntold to do. A requirement for Crew is that you have to do 3 "volunteer" rent-a-rowers to earn $65 each, hence being voluntold. For these you go to a meeting spot at about 7:30 in the morning, get assigned a job and go out and work for whoever has ordered a rower. I was assigned to a couple who are both Purdue faculty. They had us do some yard work, trimming, raking, ect. It was a nice day, they fed us, and tipped us so that was not too bad of an experience. It was really nice to get off campus. I didn't realize until this morning how nice it felt to be off campus for a while. I had a strange feeling yesterday after being done with the work and returning to the boat house, but I went to sleep that night with ever pinpointing that strange feeling. This morning I woke up and knew exactly what it was. I feel trapped. I feel trapped on campus. Last year I was living on my own, had a car, and could go wherever I pleased provided that I have the gas money. I hate feeling confined to one spot. Even this summer while I was working at summer camp I felt trapped. So on my weekends off I would run. The decision was usually made just before curfew at midnight. I walked the mile and a half to my car, laundry and other travel supplies in hand. Jumped in my car and drove the hour and a half to Indianapolis where old family friends live. They have been in my life since my parents got me from the PHilippines, so they are like a second family. I just walk in and sleep there whenever I please.
I loved it at camp and I love it here at Purdue, but somedays I have the insatiable desire to get away. Just take a little break from my reality. Hopefully I find an escape or the feeling passes with a little bit of time.